I am struggling this December.
I feel like in past years I have done a really good job of being intentional with our December. I usually get my Christmas cards out early, I have our calendar for the month set and make sure to not let it get overloaded.
Most years I have all my Christmas shopping done before Thanksgiving and all Christmas decorations up for us to enjoy before we even take our first bite of turkey.
This year however, I'm struggling. Big time.
The night of Thanksgiving I sat at the kitchen table at my in-laws house and just looked at my December calendar. I don't know how it happened, or why I let it happen this year but our December was (and still is) packed with "things" to do.
I never want December to become something that is so rushed and stressed that I don't get to enjoy it but I feel like maybe I've let that happen this year.
I just sent out Christmas cards today, I haven't even started Christmas shopping and I let a couple of events fall through the cracks that I love doing every year.
More than anything I'm just upset with myself for letting a season pass by and not truly enjoying all of it. I could blame it on the fact that we just moved and blah blah but really I should have been more intentional about this season.
This past Sunday we had our Christmas program at church. It was Eli's first year to be able to stand on stage and sing. He only sang one song and it was "happy birthday" to Jesus but he rocked it like any Jingle Bell singing two year old would.
I had the privilege of being the virgin Mary in the play, some might call it a privilege, others might say I'm married to the music pastor and am asked a week before the event if I could be Mary. My acting skills required sitting in a rocking chair and staring at a baby doll. I also rocked my performance.
I wasn't able to get a pic of Eli on stage because I was standing back about to make my debut as Mary but I took this picture before the service. The kids were dressed
He got a little stage fright prior to his performance but then did well once he got up there.
Just about a week till Christmas and I'm going to do my best to not get stressed about how behind I am and just truly enjoy it. And I should probably start shopping for gifts at some point.