Today is one of those thankfulness posts that doesn't need a lot of explanation.
I am so thankful to be pregnant again.
Pregnancy isn't always the most fun time. There are sleepless nights, weight gain, discomfort in your own body and pain in various areas of your body that seems to come out of nowhere.
But it's oh so amazing. Feeling tiny kicks from those mysterious feet inside of you. The anticipation of seeing your baby and kissing those feet that kicked your ribs for so long. The feeling of knowing you are growing your baby. It is all too much to even wrap my mind around.
While it is amazing and it is thrilling, it isn't without some worries and fears. Feelings that I constantly have to take to God and give them to him knowing they are out of my control.
One thing that has worried me a bit is wondering how Eli will adjust to all of the change. People keep asking me what Eli thinks about the baby and really, he doesn't get it at all. HE'S TWO. He can't remember to use the toilet. He has no realistic understanding that soon he will be sharing his parents with another being.
And with that sentence right there I almost start crying. We'll just blame the hormones on that one.
I'm so worried about how he will handle it all and how it will affect him. And I know without question there will be a bit of a learning curve as he adjusts to life with a sibling, but I also have to remind myself I am giving him a gift. Someone to walk through life with. Someone to reminisce with about mom's bad cooking and dad's ridiculous yet comical love of the Giants. A built in friend to play super hero's with and battle over video games and stay up late with. Someone that he can just be himself with, someone that not only knows his past but lived it with him every step of the way.
Right now I'm thankful for this growing baby, for Eli's sibling his new baby brother or sister (sister if you ask him).
So I'm going to enjoy this pregnancy, which includes all the heartburn and weight gain and those pesky leg cramps that happen in the middle of the night. I'm going to enjoy every minute. I'm going to try not to eat so many donuts this time around but I am going to enjoy it and not entertain my worries.