I unintentionally took sometime away from blogging this past week or so.
Well maybe part of it was intentional. It was probably best that I didn't take the time to come here and use the keyboard to express what was going on in my mind, because it probably wouldn't have been the most uplifting or entertaining posts.
I'm the kind of person who wears my emotions on my sleeve - which I've never really understood that phrase but obviously it means if I'm upset EVERYBODY KNOWS.
And sometime between May and today I feel like I've hit this season of life where I feel like I'm waiting on everything. Which has then caused me to have a bad attitude.
Obviously I'm not waiting on "everything" - not only do I "wear my emotions on my sleeve" but I tend to be a bit dramatic. I'm not waiting on "everything" but I do feel as if there are so many areas of my life that are on hold right now and I'm ready to push that GO button.
I'm ready to push the GO button, but for WHATEVER reason the GO button is malfunctioning right now, so I'm waiting. And waiting.
In the midst of this waiting and having a bad attitude, I was at church and I was flipping through my bible to turn to the directed page, when I stumbled across a note I had written in my bible...
I don't even remember writing this down, but I remember the feeling of wanting to be home full time with Eli. I was content with where I was and the season of life I was in at that point, but still, I knew I wanted to be home with Eli, so there I was waiting.
When I read this verse over a year ago it resonated with me, and I began to pray that verse over my request of wanting to be home full time with Eli. Taking it to the Lord, leaving it at the cross.
And now here I am on the other side of waiting. And the Lord is reminding me that He is faithful. Before the waiting, during the waiting, after the waiting. He was there, He is here.
It's funny how God can be SO faithful, yet I constantly need reminders of his faithfulness. And He is faithful enough to constantly give me reminders.
Thank goodness, because I need them.
I keep going back to this page of my bible, reading it and sitting in amazement of God. Not just because a request had been met and it was time to move on to the next request, but because I'm able to have a relationship with the One who hears me. I needed to see this reminder at this exact time and it was delivered.
A reminder of His faithfulness.