4/2/12

Seasons

This morning I was in my bathroom getting ready for the day. Eli was still sleeping in his crib and Luke was in the office.

I was in the middle of my normal routine of primping and brushing my hair and looking in the mirror when it hit me; I'm somebody's wife. I'm somebody's mom.

When I look in the mirror I see the same ole me that I've always seen. The me from jr high who played the clarinet but didn't want anybody to know. The me from high school who chose hanging out with her youth group over high school parties and the "in" scene.

Clearly if I played the clarinet I didn't need to worry about the "in" scene too much. They weren't exactly begging me to hang out with them.

Sometimes I can't believe that this is my life. That I really got the cute baby, the handsome, caring and Godly husband, the beautiful home and everything else my life is made up of.

I honestly feel like any day I will wake up and I will be in high school dreaming about what my life will look like in the future. Who will I marry? Will I get married? What will I do? Where will I live?

I spend SO much time worrying about the future, that sometimes when I'm actually living it it's hard to believe, wow there was no point in my worrying, it all worked out.

We are in a season of our lives right now were "wants" have taken a backseat. New clothes, blonde hair (for me, Luke would make a terrible blonde), eating out and fancy vacations are things that we will visit again in the future. By me working part time we have chosen to put material things on hold for now and really it is ok.

Most times, when I want to complain about not going shopping, or how I desperately need new wedges I remember just how lucky and blessed I am. Our God has provided for our needs, and for that I am thankful.

Life isn't always easy. Luke and I fight. Eli has fussy days. I decide I want new furniture THAT DAY and proceed to have a pity party because I can't get it THAT DAY (think Veruca from Willy Wonka).

In the moments of thinking about what I "need" I forget about all that I have. Everything that I once wanted so bad (husband, baby, house, good job, good friends) and instead focus on what I don't have.

And when the times come where I'm complaining about wearing "old" clothes or looking at my house picturing where I would put new decorations if I had them I try and remember to stop and be thankful.

Lately I've been practicing just stopping and thanking God for what he has provided now. For this season. For my life.

And the more I've done this the more I feel materialistic wants go away. Yes I still want new clothes, and things of that nature but it doesn't become a need or an obsession, or something that brings me happiness and satisfaction. It is simply a luxury that I sometimes get and sometimes don't.

I have so much to be thankful for, like these two guys...

The best musicians in the world. And they're all mine forever (well at least one of them is mine forever, the other is mine until he marries a stinky ole girl, but I won't think about that, instead I'll be a crazy boy mom for now).My cup is overflowing.

Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. Colossians 3:15

25 comments:

Kodi said...

I love this post so, so much.

Courtney said...

Such a great post, one of my favorites and so true. You have a great way with putting into words what I'm thinking or feeling. Loved this!

Ashley said...

You are AMAZING with words!!

Susan said...

I just wanted to say that despite me not being religious in the least, this post really resonated with me. Being grateful for what we have and not running after the latest and greatest is something good to practice. Thank you.

Annie said...

LOVE this post! i had one of those moments today as well. i was so fixated on planning cullen's next bedroom for when we move and then i thought, what is wrong with everything in his room right now. NOTHING! it's only been in there for a year or so. i've had everything in my bedroom for almost 10 years, it's perfectly fine. some days i put myself in my own place, i like those days though. they are needed. we need to be thankful for everything we have right now :)

p.s. that pic of your two musical boys, amazing :) one you will have to save forever and ever,

Anna Catherine said...

Thanks for this post. I needed it today. I'm in a completely different season, that of being 30 and single. Sometimes I'm so busy thinking about the next season, and if it will come, that I forget to be thankful for what this season has brought me. Thanks for the reminder.

Justine said...

Perfectly written and exactly something I needed to read today. Thank you.

Madison's Mommy said...

I love this post. You read my mind...only your writing is way funnier then my thoughts!!

XOXO

Anonymous said...

I'm currently at the point where I've really been thinking about all things I want like the husband, baby, job, and house. I'm still in college but as I am getting closer to graduation I've started to think about other things besides school work and a social life!

You are so blessed and I cannot wait to have all the things you have! That sounds creepier than I meant it to be...whoops!

Maureen

Jenn Getts said...

Love this post!!

Tara Gibson said...

Really loved this post girl! You are a very blessed lady!

jessa r. said...

dear Megan,

wow - you captured this feeling so perfectly. i don't have a husband or baby (yet!) but i too need to be grateful for this moment - this season. your ability to find JUST the right Scripture to quell the storms in my heart when I am anxiously wishing for the future.

Sweet Simplicity said...

Exactly! You wrote it all down perfectly. I find myself always wishing for something else and forget how incredibly blessed I already am.

Anonymous said...

Wow, did I need to read this today. I am in a nearly identical season and have found myself this week dwelling so much on what my life used to be like, instead of being thankful for what I have. Thank you for the reminder!
Leslie

Mateya said...

Such a great post! A wonderful reminder for all of us!

Jennifer said...

Loved this post! And just what I needed to hear today. I spend so much of my time worrying, that I forget to be thankful for what the Lord has blessed me with. Thank you for reminding me to be thankful!!!

katie@tulsadetails said...

Loved this post. As a fellow worrier, I'm glad to have the reminder that so much that I worry about is just wasted time.

Anonymous said...

I LOVE your blog. Your posts always seem to relate to what I am going through. I have a 8 month old baby boy and I love hearing what you are going through at the moment. You are so honest and it's nice to have someone that doesn't sugar coat things.

Lisa Stepi said...

Thank you so much for this post. I, too, struggle with contentment, and that verse you posted at the end was so good!

The Rohman Family said...

Made me think of the quick read "Enough" by Adam Hamilton. He has a line that goes something like...Lord, help me be content with what I have and remind me that I rarely need what I want.

Aja said...

Amen! Such a great reminder. We are so blessed.

Laura said...

I could have written this myself.

Jourdan said...

Such a great great post Megan! Thank you for reminding me to do this, it was sort of what church was about on Sunday too. I have so much to be thankful for right now and want to remember to focus on that!

-Lauren said...

I am going to bookmark this and read it once a week. I need to hear the words you wrote and I need to hear them often. Thanks for writing it, and thanks for the Willy Wonka reference..made me laugh..hard.

Dianna said...

That pic is so sweet. I love babies is diapers!!