11/15/11

The Job that Never Ends

When Luke and I first got married everybody told us how your selfishness has to go out the door after you get married and how we would now learn what it means to truly sacrifice yourself for someone else.

While I agree with that, I don't think it is ANYTHING compared to the sacrifice that comes from having a baby.

Forget the words I, Me, Myself, you won't use them very often anymore. And with a good reason.

If you aren't careful your life can become totally wrapped up in that little lovebug. When you look at your child you are met with a love that you never knew you had. A love that you can't even really comprehend. And with something so big, also comes the responsibility.

No longer is your time your own, no longer can your spouse give you all their attention, no longer do you get to get to decide when you sleep and when you wake up. For awhile you are at the beck and call of your tiny baby. Your world.

And that means even when you are sick, your life is still not your own. You still have a tiny person to tend to, making sure they are fed, played with and protected.

Currently I am sick. I woke up not feeling well but was convinced it was due to a new medication I started and took late at night with no food on my stomach. But late in the day when I still felt bad I realized it was not the medicine. And then I was down for the count.

I was able to leave work and come home to get some rest, but there was one job waiting for me that never ends, regardless of my health status; mommy.

Luke had several plans scheduled for tonight that he needed to fulfill (we are big sticklers with following through with our commitments as much as humanly possible) so we decided I could tough it out at home with Eli even though I felt like death.

First I tried explaining to Eli that mommy was sick and he needed to fend for himself for the night. He just leaned his head back and laughed his new laugh that can make any sick mommy smile until her cheeks hurt.

I then tried to give Eli my all but it was hard, I eventually ended up laying down on the floor and let him crawl all over me.

Half of my hair was pulled out but it proved to be effective parenting while sick.

Parenting while sick. Something you don't think about when you are bouncing around with glee during the second trimester, when your hair is perfect and you are in the middle of planning the nursery to a perfect point and ensuring that you have the cutest going home outfit for your baby.

I'm sure there will be other days in the future when I am sick and I'm alone with Eli, but hopefully he will be at the age where I can turn on the TV and let him enjoy the mindless game of television watching. I kid I kid.

Luke got home just after Eli went to bed. He came bearing saltine cracker and orange juice, which at the time seemed appealing but don't seem to be sitting very well now.

Here's to hoping I feel better in the morning. I'm a whiny sick person. Almost as bad as a man.

I also get fiesty when I'm sick.

13 comments:

Smile Steady said...

Once again, you are just giving me ALL KINDS of things to look forward to! ;)

I'm so sorry you're not feeling well... hopefully you'll be back to normal today. Get better!

Perfectly Imperfect said...

right there with you today girl :/ hope you feel better soon!

Dianna said...

I hope you feel better.

Stacy said...

I always love your post, you are so honest and real, the sermon at church this past Sunday was about selfishness, and how it changes when you get married, have kids, you and your husband are so precious, and seem to be doing just fine, and Eli is sooo cute!!!

Amanda said...

Sorry that you do not feel well. It is hard to be a mommy and be sick at the same time. I'm currently fighting a horrible sinus infection but my 3 year old and 7 month old still need mommy so like you I'm pushing through and was very thankful when they went to bed last night.

Get well soon.

Lauren said...

hope you feel better very soon! I figure that is only one of the rude awakenings I'm going to have as a mom...I do not mesh well with sickness!

Claire said...

I hear you! I'm recovering from a bout of the ills right now, and I get soooooo whiny! Bless you for dealing with sickness and looking after your sweet boy. I hope you are feeling all better soon.

Cxx

Ashley said...

I'm a whiny sick person, too. Actually, I act like I'm the only person that has ever been sick and lay all pathetic-like on the couch while being waited on by my husband. Who is equally pathetic when sick, so he gets it. When babies enter the picture though, that business is over!! I'm so sorry you're sick! Hope you're feeling better!

Life and Times . . . said...

I teach school, and one Wednesday last winter I came home feeling awful. About 5:45, I realized I had fever, but my husband is the youth pastor at our church. He had to go anyway because they were depending on him which meant I was stuck bathing, feeding, and putting to bed a three year all while running 104 fever. I thought I was going to pass out a few times, but I survived. Then I went to bed and put my husband in charge for a few days. It's much harder being sick as a mom. You can't just crawl in bed and sleep even when you feel horrible. Hope you feel well soon!

Katy said...

Been there! Migraine, hanging out on the floor of the dark nursery, being beat up on by the baby. Not to mention the futile knowledge that you know you'd be healthy if you could just get a good night's rest... Ahhh motherhood. Feel better!

Alex and Jill said...

I'm sorry you're sick! You are so right - being sick with a baby is hard. Praying you feel better soon, friend!

alongdistancelovestory.com said...

Ohhhhh isn't this the truth!
Your world changes when you have a baby (of course) but when you're sick and you have a baby you wonder HOW THE HECK YOU'RE GOING TO DO IT!!!!
I hope you're feeling better soon lovely lady!

Maria said...

Why am I just reading this now?! I definitely hope you feel better by now. This mommy business is no joke! Our world revolves around them and their world revolves around us- there is no downtime. That's good at times, too.
Also, I can't wait for the age of mindless tv babysitting. I kid I kid. Not.