But in order to manage my goals I need to get my life in order and right now I feel like I am scattered everywhere and have no grasp of what I am doing.
This feeling isn't new. I can remember throughout college feeling like I was so off balance and couldn't get my head on straight.
Which is obviously incredibly funny at this point in my life because looking back I can't imagine it was very hard to balance a life of eating as much Taco Bueno as one week would allow, while hanging out with friends, trying to dominate Tetris on the original nintendo, staying up as late as possible and occasionally doing homework.
That paragraph makes it sound like my college time was lame. It really was awesome and fun. Very G-rated compared to the average college student, but awesome and fun all at the same time.
So clearly no matter what is on my plate I find it hard to balance it all. And I know from here on out life is probably only going to get busier. Adding one child to our mix sped things up to lightning speed, I can't imagine what it will be like one day when we add another child and then all that life entails after that.
With that said, it is imperative that I learn how to balance life now.
I feel like I am constantly one (or two or three or four) steps behind. There is always someone that I need to call, someone to meet for lunch, an email to return, laundry to be done, a house to clean, groceries to buy, a bible to be read, a body to get in shape, a husband to spend time with a baby to play with, dishes to wash and of course I could go on and on.
I'm not complaining about all that I have on my plate, because I am thankful for a full life, but I really need help in prioritizing and managing it all.
When I went to my Scentsy convention last week one of the speakers spoke about how when you do something for 21 days it becomes a habit and starts to become apart of your routine. He encouraged us to do something for 21 days such as working out or meditating for 2 minutes in the morning or sending someone an encouraging note everyday for 21 days.
That would be 21 different people for 21 days not the same person for 21 days. That would probably get really creepy.
I was so pumped about this and had it all planned out as to what I was going to do for 21 days. I committed to myself that I WOULD do it. And then got home and did not do it once. It's not that I don't have time. I can find five minutes of my day to sit and write a note to someone to encourage them or 15 minutes to read the Word and spend time with God, but my prioritization is all off and sadly I do not always make time for those things.
So that is what I'm working on now. I don't have a fluffy ending that wraps everything up and explains how I learned to prioritize and boasts that I've got it all together now, because I don't. But I DO want to get it all together. I don't want to be a person who constantly complains about having too much to do, because that is not the problem, prioritizing is the problem and is something I feel convicted about quite often.
I have obviously found time in this day to sit down and write this blog post, but I still haven't exercised, or vacuumed or spent adequate time with God. Three things I planned to do today. And have now been set aside for tomorrow. Again.
I want to make an active choice to prioritize everything in my life.
Maybe someone out there has a suggestion as to how to do this? Or maybe you just want to whine alongside me? Go right ahead.
Hopefully I will be back here soon writing a post about how I have learned how to balance life and prioritize everything on my plate.
If only that plate consisted of Taco Bueno and playing Tetris. Such a strenuous time of life. I'm not sure how I managed.