I honestly expected to cry this morning, a lot. But I actually didn't. I think I got it all out of my system last week.
It seems that the anticipation of the actual first day was worse than the actual day itself.
It also helps that for the month of June Eli gets to stay at our house with his grandmas.
He will start childcare in July but for the month of June our moms are taking turns driving here and keeping Eli for the three days that I am working.
So this morning I left Eli with Luke's mom and I knew he was safe and sound. She updated me throughout the day and texted me pictures of him.
I'm working Monday and Tuesday 8-5 and Wednesday 8-noon so by noon on Wednesday I will be home for the week with my baby. I'm so thankful that it worked out for me to go part time. I was not ready to leave my place of employment and my job duties, but I was also not ready to leave my baby all week. This seems that it is "the best of both worlds".
I know that I will have good days and bad days. I'm sure there will be a couple of days here and there where I will miss Eli all day and just want to hold him, but I also know that most days will be good days and I will enjoy my time at work and know that Eli is enjoying his time and is in safe hands.
And can we talk for a minute about HOW WEIRD it was to return to work after being gone for 12 straight weeks?!? I honestly felt like I never left.
I keep thinking it is March and feel totally thrown off when I realize it is in fact June.
My office is the same, my desk is the same, my entire work routine is the exact same. I was gone for 60 days, yet I feel like I didn't miss a day. Randomly throughout the day I would think OH YEAH I HAVE A BABY NOW. It was just bizarre.
I also never pumped milk while sitting at my desk 60 days ago. That was interesting.
Here is a picture of us thatLuke snapped before I left for work.
Actually I asked him to take it. I like how I made it sound like he spontaneously picked up the camera and we just happened to pose. It did not happen like that. But I have to say it was much less dramatic then the weekly pregnancy posts we took for several months. Those fights will go down in history.
Eli and I on my first day back to work:
I just re-read this post and realized it is totally sporadic and doesn't really flow. That is what happens when you write a post at 11:00 at night after working all day when you were up with a baby for several hours the night before.
So basically expect lots of posts like this.