11/4/10

Whatcha up to?

Do you ever have times where you want to say hey Lord, whatcha up to up there?? I guess you decided to do a little "remix" with my life did ya??

Right now, the Tree's are definitely in the middle of a season of remix. Our families are fine and healthy, baby Tree is snuggled in my tummy doing well, but there are other small issues going on that are mixing things up a bit.

I am a planner by nature. I have always wanted every detail of my life planned. I will lay around at night and try to plan certain scenarios of my life.

Scenarios that may never happen, yet by golly I have a plan.

Before I got married, before I was even engaged I had my wedding planned to a T. What song I would walk down the aisle to, what colors I would use, how my groom would look when I walked down the aisle (I didn't want tears but I wanted a look of pure elation), what song would play during the sideshow. It was a wedding in a box waiting to be put into action.

Then the planning day came....and I did not use one aspect from my already planned wedding.

Time changed thing, circumstances were different. The plan that once seemed perfect no longer fit my situation or where I was in life.

Life cannot be planned.

Last night around 4am I was laying awake in my bed, just staring at the ceiling. In my mind I asked God, "what do you what me to learn right now" and a response came clear as day.

Trust.

It wasn't a huge long answer, it wasn't something that solved every problem or even answered all of my other questions, but it was an answer.

I need to learn to trust.

I have never been a person to say that I hear God's voice audibly. In fact many times I am jealous of people who say that they can hear him audibly. I don't get it. I often question what is from God. How do you tell the difference between your own thoughts and what is from God? Can God use our own thoughts to speak to us or does it have to be his own voice?? I spend so much time questioning.

It all gets so confusing to me. In fact, in a bit of frustration the other day I told Luke I wish there was just some kind of instruction manual from God to help us figure all of this out.

He just stared at me.

Oh yeah, the bible.I had truly forgot in that moment.

You see I get so caught up in the questioning and planning of everything that I forget the simplicity of God.

His answers don't have to be these big complex answers, it doesn't have to be this voice that splits the sky and echos through my house and knocks me from my feet. I don't have to sit for hours questioning every thought thinking "is this God"? "is this what we are supposed to do?"

He is simple.

He loves us.

He wants to teach us.

He wants us to trust Him.

Simple.

I don't need to flip through His "instruction manual" looking for life's answers. Trying to put together X, Y, and Z to see if it equals the answer I'm looking for.

Instead I can spend time in that instruction manual learning more about Him, growing closer to Him, and through that, life's answers will come.

Life is not simple. Hard times come, confusion comes, we go through peaks and valley's, but our God is simple.

So when I want to spend time trying to find an answer to every question and make a plan for the next step I will remember to trust.

And really I am typing all of this out to serve as a reminder for myself. Because my human nature and stubborn mind will take over and I will begin to make my own plans. And maybe even say "hey God, I've got it planned this way and it looks pretty good, pretty please put this into action, thanks love ya"

But peace does not come from me making my own plans for life, or by telling God what I think he should do.
There is nowhere I would rather be then right in the middle of God's peace.

Peace comes from trust. Simple.

26 comments:

Lauren said...

This is so spot on, Megan. Thank you for this. Thanks!

Miss E said...

Such a great post! Lots of good things to remind myself.

Tricia Loves Makeup and Fashion said...

What a beautiful post! Sometimes we need to take a step back and remember who is really in control. Thank you for the reminder.

Katie M said...

Beautiful post and just what I needed to "hear" for today! Thanks for your refreshing thoughts! Xoxo

melhuff said...

Great post! Something I needed to hear for sure. I'm definitley in a valley right now. I appreciate your honesty and your love for the word. I would really love to read/hear your testimony sometime. Or maybe you already blogged it? Anyways, I think it would be inspiring to read.

Samantha said...

AMEN from the section up here in Michigan. This is totally where I am right now in life. NOTHING has gone according to plan in this chapter of our lives known as Michigan. But I think it happens that way for a reason.

Ashlynn said...

Hi there! I'm your newest follower and just dropping in to say what you posted is soooo true! I am going through a trying time as well, so I definitely needed this today. Love your blog!

Megan said...

I really don't know how I stumbled onto your blog, I did a Google search of "baby boy tree bedding" and viola, your blog appeared. I have been laughing so hard at work just reading through everything. I'm due with my third boy on March 27th so all of your updates have been so similar to what I'm going through. After I read everything, I saw this updated post from today and it is so true! Thanks for the reminder that we put our trust in Him and all will be okay.

Megan (Macon, GA)

MJ said...

so true! i struggle with this a lot too--you're not alone! but thank you for posting this!

Brittany said...

I have to remind myself of all of this many times a month. I easily become frustrated when I had something planned and it doesn't work out. But then I have to tell myself...this is all happening for a reason...He has a plan for me.

Great post!

The Shabby Princess said...

Beautifully said!

Courtney said...

I don't think I could have worded it better. There are times all I want is a clear answer from God and I am left in confusion trying to figure out what He is saying to me. It's time like that when I know I need to spend more time in the word and less time trying to figure out how God works.

Classy Fab Sarah said...

Since I am the least peaceful person I know... this is definitely something I needed to hear!

Rachel said...

Well said. Praying for you :)

Becca said...

such a great post friend -- I am praying for you!!!

Sweet Simplicity said...

I love it when you share things like this. You always have a great way of writing it all down.

"The Mrs." said...

This is so something I needed to read today! Thank you!

Lea Ann said...

I'm so glad you wrote this today- I really needed it!

Ashley said...

Loved this! I need to remember this many times. I feel the exact same way about hearing God's voice. I never know what is my own thoughts/doubts and what is him speaking to my heart. But I completely agree that when we spend more time knowing Him (through His word) then it is so much more clear! Amen to your whole post. Haha : )

Lauren :-) said...

This reminds me of the line in a country music song "If you want to hear God laugh, tell him your plans"
It is so true and I definitely needed to be reminded of this. Great way of putting it!

Tabbie:) said...

BEAUTIFUL.

c said...

Having a child is the biggest journey in trusting God I've ever had. I'm a worrier by nature, and all the worries could drive a person crazy. Kids get sick, they fall down, they cry, they bite, the pitch fits and through it all you worry. What if they have some strange tropical illness and not just a run of the mill virus (and no we haven't visited any tropical islands lately)? What if they have brain damage from hitting their head for the 80000 time today? What if they are crying because they are not receiving enough attention? What if I'm too strict? What if I'm not strict enough? You get the point. But at the end of it all I've had to learn to trust. I've had to pray and leave things be. Sure there are times when you are concerned. There are doctors visits and late nights, but ultimately I've had to learn to trust God and let go of things. And by the way my three year old does not have any tropical illnesses . . . that I know of.

Sandy said...

Thanks for this post. Was just in a conversation with a friend about this very issue: trust. Thanks for your insight.

Heather said...

Great post Megan. I am right there with you, asking Him all the time what He is up to. I believe one of the reasons he allowed this move to TX was a lesson in trust. It hasn't been easy, but I'm learning. Thanks for sharing!

Julie said...

This was beautiful. Thank you for sharing it.

Katie M said...

Great, inspiring post. We all need to be reminded of God's daily faithfulness (despite our daily un-faithfulness!). Thanks for the reminder =)