11/8/10

Our Life Right Now

This weekend I spent some time going through some old posts of mine on the blog. I absolutely LOVE having this blog and using it to keep a journal of our lives and what is going on. I went through old posts and got a little sad thinking about our sweet apartment that I hated so much, and how thankful I am that I have pictures of us from that season of our life. We made that apartment our home, regardless of the fact that we wanted to be in a house so badly at that time.

Having an online journal is similar to a prayer journal. I go back through different seasons of our life and I can see where we were, how far we have come, what God has done. Ways in which we surrendered to him, or sometimes held on to something stubbornly, only to later surrender and watch him provide.

And now we find ourselves in another season of life, our current chapter.
Sometimes it's weird how life can change drastically, something will take you by complete surprise, yet looking back you see how maybe, just maybe, God was preparing you for this time. Unfortunately, last week we found out that Luke no longer has an income at his current job.

It is a long and VERY confusing story, and to be honest, 10 years down the road I'm not sure if I will care about all the details. In fact some of them may cause bitterness, or hurt, or just anger and there is no need to keep record of those things to later dwell on.

The black and white of it is that our church where we have served and ministered for 6 years is unfortunately no longer able to pay it's staff. It is a sad situation and one that has caused us to ask questions after questions after questions.

But as I stated in a previous post, answers are not what we need right now. This is a time that we can learn to trust and rely on God.

It is easy to say you live a life of faith, and trust, and thanks. But do you really live those things when the ground below you is shaking and everything that you knew as "stable" is now a big fat question mark?

I can honestly say that throughout this whole experience we have felt nothing but peace. A peace that can only come from our God.

You see, our Hope is not in money, or stability. We live a life where we strive to be content no matter what the circumstances are, and that applies in ALL situations.

Now I am not naive. I know that it takes money to live, but lately we have gotten used to a whole lot of "wants" and a very few "needs".

Strangely, I have begun to see this time as a blessing. So many times in life I spend money on frivolous things.

Do I really need the fanciest nursery furniture? No.

Do I really need to stop at Starbucks every single day just because its red cup season and I can get my beloved peppermint mocha? No.

Do I really need to buy an ENTIRE new wardrobe of maternity clothes, because I don't want to wear the same clothes over and over while pregnant? No.

I could go on and on but I think the moral of my story is that God is teaching me to be dependent on Him and not money.

And even though we have peace about it all, it's still a bit of a nerve-wracking time. So many things are up in the air, but we also know that it will be ok.

And we will use this time to learn.

Honestly we are thankful. We have SO much to be thankful for, we have amazing families, amazing friends who have committed to praying for us through this season, a sweet Baby Tree on the way, a beautiful home, and even neighbors who mow our yard! :-) We are thankful.

And really, there are so many people going through so much worse. Losing an income is not even close to horrible in our opinion. It's just the "unknown" that is stressful, but we know we will see the other side soon.

So that is our life right now. It's all apart of our journey and I wanted to be sure and record it.

42 comments:

Megan said...

Praying for your family!

Classy Fab Sarah said...

Girl, I can only imagine how scary this time must feel. I am praying for all three of you!

Chelsi said...

This post is very well written... its obvious that you have waited to gather your thoughts and write about it in a calm perspective... Kudos to you! I appreciate your honesty and trust in Him to provide for your family... all of your statements about wants vs. needs were spot on and I think we all should live a little more like that all of the time!

Mallory said...

I truly admire your peace and faith in what I'm sure is a very scary situation, magnified by Baby Boy on the way. That peace is something that I need to focus on more when I deal with tough times. Praying that you and Luke continue to be "okay" and that Luke can find a new income again soon!

petrii said...

Oh sweet Megan,

Hang in there sweet one!!! I'll be praying for you and Luke and Baby Tree.

Have a Blessed evening,
Dawn

Lena Medina said...

Dear Megan,
I wanted to let you know that this post really made me think...and pray...and thank God for his unending provision for our lives. Although I don't know you personally (only through this crazy blog world), I will pray that you have continued peace about this current chapter. I respect you and admire you for being so faithful to Our God and trust him even in the difficult times. It is an example to me. Thank you.
Lena

Kodi said...

Megan-
We are so in the same place right now...Nathan's job change happened months ago, but financially we are struggling. I'm ashamed to say that my attitude has been nowhere near as mature as yours has been. I really, really needed to read this. Also, I'll tell you that from our experience, it will probably get a lot harder before it gets easier, but it will get easier.

XO, Kodi

Kate said...

Almost 1 year ago (Nov. 30 will be my "anniversary"), I lost my job. It was an extremely frustrating and uncertain time for me... and I HATED my old job! I know Luke loved his, so I can't even begin to imagine how that must feel. I'm so glad you have peace, and each other, and so many people who care about and are praying for you! It was a huge period of growth for me and for Evan and I as a couple... and in the end, it was a big blessing. I'm thinking of y'all and praying for continued peace during this transition.

Anonymous said...

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.

This helped us get through that time in our lives and hopefully will help you, too.

Elisa

According to Ashley said...

Thinking about you guys!

Jenni said...

Aww, girl. Thank you so much for your honesty in this post. Everything WILL be ok for you. I am adding you and your family to my prayer list RIGHT NOW!

Lea Ann said...

This too shall pass. I will be praying for you and Luke.

Sarah @Newlywed and Decorating said...

Your faith is a great testament! So glad you have peace! Praying for a new job for your husband.

Girl Meets Beau said...

I'm so sorry! I know this feeling all too well. Aaron lost his job in January and it was one of the hardest times we had gone through. It was amazing the peace we felt though. God truly does provide. Whether it be through family, friends, or leading you down a new path that you never could have imagined before. It will get better and you will look back on this and thank God for this amazing life lesson. Just don't forget this time in your life. I really did feel like God took an income away from us so that we would learn not to rely on the worldly things and money so much. I pray that we never have to be led back down that path again!

I'll be praying for you and your family! Keep the faith and the positive attitude. If God brings you to it He will bring you through it :)

mrs. darling said...

this is so beautifully written. 1.5 years ago my husband lost his job, it would be one year to the day before God provided another. two months later i would be laid off from my job. three months later we found out a baby is on the way. and now, two months after that, i still have no job but God has made a way for that to be okay. my husband has a new job and received a promotion on the first day.

and i write all this not to overwhelm or scare you but as a way to say...God is good. He is faithful to provide. He taught us lessons through all of this that have changed our lives. (like you wrote, what we need and what we want...such a huge thing) and while it's been tough and scary at times, i wouldn't change it for the world.

praying for you, luke and baby tree. and i am SO excited to see what God is going to do, how He will provide and how amazing it will be for all three of you!

katie@tulsadetails said...

Prayers for you. I am sure it is very stressful. It will be exciting, though, to see what your future holds.

Lauren said...

praying for you as you trust the Lord to be your provider! i will wait with great expectation for your post as to the next steps the Lord has for Luke!!

Stolen by Mullen said...

Awww Megan.....I'm saying a prayer for you. Psalm 138:9 - God will perfect all that concerns me, his mercy endures, He will not forsake the works of His hands.

Bad things, stupid things happen, but I'm convinced that when it happens to us, we want to feel picked on and depressed, however we are being picked out for a bigger purpose...what we do with our circumstances, how we react, sets us apart. You guys will get through this....God didn't take you this far, with your new, perfect baby and beautiful home, to leave you alone.

Greta said...

Wonderful perspective. You're right, the true test of walking in faith comes in hard times. It can be really reassuring that you are, in fact, relying on God.

You're wise to recognize wants vs. needs and that will make things easier to cut back on. When my husband and I went from 2 incomes to 1 (for the sake of me staying home with our kids), we quickly realized what all we could do with out. I look at it like a challenge, which kinda makes it fun!

Keep us posted :).

Rachel said...

I was going to start by saying that I'm sorry to hear you're going through this. And while that is kind of true, I also think it's amazing how the Lord is working in your heart as you and Luke sort all this out and you travel through the unknown. He is clearly at work in both of you as you face the uncertainty of the future. I am praying for you, Luke, and baby Tree :)

annie said...

Your perspective and faith are inspiring~ I've no doubt you and your lovely little family will come out stronger after this little bump in the road! He will provide!

Rachel said...

I am inspired by your faith! I am not a religious person in any way, shape, or form, but I am just inspired by your ability to take things in stride. :)

Keeping you and Luke and baby Tree in my thoughts! XO

quite contrary said...

you are such a great inspiration for so many people! thank you!

MJ said...

definitely praying for you trees! God will continue to give you peace but i also believe that He'll stretch you in ways that you didn't think possible. God's will and place for you isn't always going to be a comfortable place. that is what i just blogged about. keep us posted!

5th Belle Avenue said...

Oh sweet girl, I will be praying for you! Your faith and attitude are SO encouraging!

Alison Mayes said...

I can definitely relate! Being in the ministry is hard because your salary is based on the giving in the church. It is so encouraging to see your outlook on things and not to be focusing on the negative! We too have to learn to really trust in God and not just in the good times.

The Shabby Princess said...

So sorry for the loss of Luke's income, but, what a wonderful outlook you have and such strength. Prayers to you and your sweet family!

Jess said...

Praying for you guys!!

I know it's cliche, but where God closes a door, he opens a window. I'm sure there is something more awesome than you guys can even imagine just around the corner.

The LaJeunesse Family said...

Your faith really does inspire me. I'm praying for direction for you and Luke.

USCEmily said...

I'm sorry to hear about Luke's job, but your positive attitude and faith in God will get you through, I'm sure of it. My prayers are with you as you figure out the next step!

Katy said...

Praying for you, but in awe of your peace!

Alex and Jill said...

We have been in the same position and I have to admit, I was scared. God took care of us and has blessed us beyond measure, but the unknown is so scary. I think
it's the lack of control that I don't like. Which reading that sentence makes me laugh because I have ZERO control over things like that. We only have control over how we handle it. I admire you guys for your faith & God will bless that. Praying for you guys!

Rebecca (Craving Simplicity) said...

Boy do I know how you feel!!! (Minus the baby part!) :)

My husband was laid off 6 months ago and we went thru the whole range of emotions...relieved, panicked, peaceful, etc. The Lord carried us thru in such an amazing way. I thought I understood the Lord's provision until we had to deal with one income...then I REALLY understood it. Seriously, if you need any tips on how to cut back/what we did, feel free to email me!

Nikki said...

Wow, I love your perspective on this time of change. Definitely praying for your sweet family and sending good thoughts your way!

Amber said...

Your positive attitude and faith are such an inspiration! I will definitely pray that God will open new and exciting doors for the two (actually three!) of you... doors that lead to income! God IS faithful and I know He will provide for your family. xoxo

Stephanie Marie said...

I feel for you! I know it is a scary feeling to lose that sense of security, I've been there. I am glad that you are finding such comfort in knowing that God will provide. Sometimes it takes these challenges to shine the light on what we really value in this world. Praying for you and your husband and baby boy Tree.

Jackie said...

I went through this three times in the past 1.5 years with my husband's job. Nothing is for sure in this economy, but we do trust that God will provide and so far he has. My husband started his own company and picks up contracts here and there and now it looking for full time employment again. It is stressful not knowing what is going to come next, especially when you know when the bills will be due! I trust that God will protect your family. Thank you for your honesty!

In this wonderful life... said...

I am so sorry to hear this!! However, I do know you guys are amazing together and will find a way to make everything works out because you trust God has a plan! He does, just keep that in mind. He will help with your budgeting. Sometimes it's not fun, but it's so worth it.

Jon and Steph said...

I'm so sorry to hear about Luke's job and also for your church. Keeping you guys in my prayers. I really admire your strength through this. You're right, God does know his plan for y'all. I'll be thinking about you guys and keeping my fingers crossed that something amazing comes his way.

Perfectly Imperfect said...

I haven't blogged too much about this, but my husband lost his job a few months agom. It is absolutely terrifying. We buckled down and spent no extra money. But wheb you have a baby, well, they aren't cheap. Thankfully God opened doors for us quickly. Of course now we're in a new predicament as we try to move and figure out the logistics of that. All this to say, I'll be praying for y'all. Its scary, but God has a way of working things out.

Adriana said...

It's always so scary and hard to step into the unknown. But on the bad days remember that God has "Plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11
Will be praying for y'll tonight.

Sara said...

I know I'm way late on this, but I still wanted to comment. I'm so sorry to hear about Luke's job. I'm praying that God continues to give you peace that transcends all understanding and that He guides your steps into whatever He has next for your family.