7/21/10

My Steps

The summer after my junior year in college I decided not to travel back home to live with my family as I had done the summer's before, but instead I decided to stay in my college town and live there for the summer.

It was a hard decision but I felt it was the right time to stay there for the summer.

This was also the summer that my trusty ole right lung decided to stink out on my and quit working.

In other words it collapsed.

At the beginning of the summer when I decided to stay in my college town, away from my family I had no idea that I would end up spending a week and a half of that summer in the hospital.

Such is the story of life. You never know whats gonna happen.

The weekend that my lung collapsed I "just happened" to be at my home town at a wedding.

I was about to hit the road and head back to my college town when I decided that I should probably stop by the ER to figure out what that weird feeling was in my chest and why I couldn't catch my breath.

That was back in the day when I was still on my dad's insurance and I made periodic stops at the ER just to get things checked.

Seriously.

Luke put a stop to that real quick when he took over my medical bills.

Which is why I now live my life through Webmd. I miss my carefree days when I could make a quick stop at the ER, get checked over, and leave knowing I was fine and healthy.

Anyways.....

That night when I stopped at the ER to get checked over I was admitted immediately, set up with oxygen and wheeled to a room where I would end up spending the next week.

The hospital that I was admitted to was less than 5 minutes away from my parents house.

My family spent the next week going back and forth between my hospital room and home.

It was so convenient that the hospital I went to was so close to their house. Me being in the hospital didn't inconvenience them much, they could still carry on with their lives, while also catering to me at the hospital. And I needed LOTS of catering to.

If I had gone to the hospital in the town I lived in, they would have had to packed up their lives and came to where I was, or driven back and forth throughout the week.

It is a small thing, and it wouldn't have been that bad, but it was so nice that I was in the hospital so close to them.

I think about this situation many times.

Not because my lung collapse is my claim to fame and I use the excuse "I have breathing problems" when people want me to work out with them. Shady I know.

I think about this situation because to me it shows God's absolute provision.

Here I was living several hundred miles away from my family, yet "somehow" I ended up at a hospital in close proximity to them.

I know it was God, I know that he made sure that I was close to my parents.

I stopped at a random hospital yet it was one that took my insurance and everything was paid for through my dad's insurance.

It seems so small in the grand scheme of things, but, to me, this is what is so amazing about God, nothing is too big or even too small for him.

I do my best to follow the Lord everyday, spending time and communion with him. Striving to be more like Him everyday. Seeking His will for my life.

And when I do this, I know that He directs my steps. Even when I cannot visibly see it.

I had no idea that weekend when I debated whether to even go home for that wedding that I would wind up in the hospital, but He did. And He directed my steps to the place I needed to be.

Everytime I begin to doubt God providing in a situation, or start to question whether I am where I need to be in life I think back to this story, and how he guided me. I was committed to Him and gave Him the steering wheel and he led me, even when I had no idea I needed leading.

What a faithful God.

Sometimes things happen that don't make sense, but I have to remember I am looking with my own eyes, and cannot see the workings behind the scenes.

Admittingly it is hard to remember this sometimes, but I try my best.

The Lord directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way? Proverbs 20:24

15 comments:

A Southern Accent said...

Wonderful words. Love the story and thanks for the reminder to trust in God and his plans for us.

mrsashcake said...

It is always wonderful to have a reminder to just let stuff go and trust in God. Fabulous post! :)

Anonymous said...

茜茜知道他有了外遇
他變得春風滿面,嘴裡總是哼著歌曲
他開始變得有耐心聽她說話、會買禮物給她、甚至帶她出遊
茜茜知道這是因為他對外遇有愧疚
她沒有揭穿丈夫的外遇,甚至享受這樣的生活
茜茜偷偷的跟姐妹滔說:感謝老公的外遇帶來更美好的夫妻生活!

Anonymous said...

明知道他有婚姻,筱蝶還是陷進去了
他告訴筱蝶,不是不願意離婚
只是孩子還小,他不忍心孩子這麼小就面臨父母離婚的難題
他告訴筱蝶,他有多麼愛她
他多想馬上離婚光明正大和她在一起
他告訴筱蝶,她值得更好的人,但是他捨不得放手
只要給他兩年時間,他就會馬上離婚
多麼動聽的話,為了他的承諾,筱蝶甘心傻等
一心等對方離婚、一心想要成為他的太太
然而當兩年的時間過去了
男人還是沒有離婚
他淡淡的對筱蝶說:我配不上妳,所以我要放妳自由!

Anonymous said...

茜茜知道他有了外遇
他變得春風滿面,嘴裡總是哼著歌曲
他開始變得有耐心聽她說話、會買禮物給她、甚至帶她出遊
茜茜知道這是因為他對外遇有愧疚
她沒有揭穿丈夫的外遇,甚至享受這樣的生活
茜茜偷偷的跟姐妹滔說:感謝老公的外遇帶來更美好的夫妻生活!

Anonymous said...

明知道他有婚姻,筱蝶還是陷進去了
他告訴筱蝶,不是不願意離婚
只是孩子還小,他不忍心孩子這麼小就面臨父母離婚的難題
他告訴筱蝶,他有多麼愛她
他多想馬上離婚光明正大和她在一起
他告訴筱蝶,她值得更好的人,但是他捨不得放手
只要給他兩年時間,他就會馬上離婚
多麼動聽的話,為了他的承諾,筱蝶甘心傻等
一心等對方離婚、一心想要成為他的太太
然而當兩年的時間過去了
男人還是沒有離婚
他淡淡的對筱蝶說:我配不上妳,所以我要放妳自由!

~Mrs. Guru~ said...

Love the post. God does amazing things!

Newlywed and Decorating said...

Great reminder! Thank you for this !

Sweet Simplicity said...

I think it is amazing to look back on things in our lives and see how God provided and blessed.

Jess said...

Great reminder!

Lately, I've been going through some things. I'm constantly having to remind myself that God has a plan and that if I trust Him with that plan, I'll be ok.

Lauren said...

Amen...thanks for the reminder. Even when we can't see through the fog, I'm so glad that God knows where to lead us!

Jenn said...

I have been in awe of God's "behind the scenes" work...truly breathless to know He is constantly at work, even on those days where I am vocal and defiant that He has forgotten about me. He hasn't! He's doing what He does best...directing my steps. God is good.

Emma-leigh said...

what a great story! Thanks for sharing

lillies & lattes said...

hi - i found your blog through Kelly's Korner... i just bought Pete Wilson's Plan B book because i am struggling to understand the twists and turns of my life right now... and your post was just amazingly inspirational - and such perfect timing for you to reach out... thanks for sharing!

Perfectly Imperfect said...

I needed to read this today. I'm having a hard time right now with the "steps" I'm taking. I just need to have faith that God knows what He's doing and that this is all part of a plan...