6/29/10

Me Right Now

I have been disconnected from the blog world lately. When I sit down to write the words do not form like they once did and my mind is blank.

I am also insanely behind on reading all of my favorite blogs.

I hate this and it makes me sad because blogging has become such a big part of my life. I have met some of my best friends through blogging. Seriously. It's like the E-harmony for friends.

Friend-Harmony. Somebody market that quick.

Anyways I don't feel entirely disconnected from my blog friends because I keep up with a lot of friends through Twitter and this has helped me when I feel like my blogging days are over.

Today a sweet friend on Twitter reminded me that I just need to be myself on my blog. That is what first drew people to my blog, nobody expects me to always be "on" people just want me to be real.

It seems so simple, but when I received her simple message it really resonated with me.

I have always been real on this blog and I want to continue to be that way.

So for now, this is who I am right now, the real me on June 28, 2010.

I am an employee who is trying to balance a crazy new work load. Who is loving all of the new work, but at the same time overwhelmed and wanting to succeed in every way, without letting work overcome my every thought. An employee who is taking everything one day at a time.

I am a wife who loves my husband more than I ever thought I could. A wife who wants to cook dinner for my husband every night and keep a clean house, but realizes I can't always do this on my own and I'm learning to accept help. I am a wife who wants to walk beside my husband, I do not want to be spiritual dead weight that he has to drag.

I am a Christ-follower who is working through an ugly case of bitterness right now. A believer who often forgets to fill myself with the daily nutrients I need through some one-on-one time with my Creator. A person who fails everyday but strives to live a life that is pleasing to Him. A Christ-follower who is learning to not ask so many questions, but instead learn to seek Him more.

I am a girl who sometimes opens my mouth when I shouldn't. Who knows all to well what it feels like to wish I had just kept my mouth shut. But at the same time I am a girl who loves that trait about myself, learning to use it appropriately is a goal I am working towards.

I am a friend who is thankful for all of my friendships. Long distance and close, blog friend through email and blog friend turned real life friend, work friends, family friends, and friends who came out of nowhere. I am thankful for all of these friendships, and I hope that when people think of me they think of me as a good friend.

I am your typical "first born child" who is always worried about something and tries to "fix" everything, even when it's not my place to remedy the situation. I will (and have) spent hours laying awake at night worrying and trying to resolve a situation that is out of my hands. I am working on trusting God more (obviously).

I am a reader who is working through the Harry Potter series right now and is loving every minute of it.

I am an avid TV watcher who is currently obsessed with the series Friday Night Lights and can't believe I have lived this long without watching it.

I am a family person. I love family time so much and am thankful for the family that surrounds me. Not only do I have an amazing family, but I married into an amazing family. Blessed is a good way to describe how I feel when I think about my family.

I am a blogger who is sick and tired of Chinese spam comments and wants them to GO AWAY.

And lastly I am me. A me who is trying desperately to balance everything in my life and realizing that I can't always please everyone, solve every problem, or change everybody who I feel like needs to be changed. I am in a season of learning and growing. I stumble everyday but never take my eyes off of the One who created me to be me.

35 comments:

Melissa said...

That's the thing about you. Even when you think you're not "on", you totally are. You've always been a very "real" blogger and your readers appreciate that. Besides, I love reading your perspectives on things and think that you are quite witty even when you do not know you are or are not trying to be!

Alex and Jill said...

Very well said. Welcome back. :)

Emily said...

oh I love you:) I love this post! I'm so lucky to be able to call you a bloggy friend and real life friend!!

Lisa (from work) :) said...

Megan,

Im sure you hate "work people" reading your blog, but I always do.

Work can get kind of crazy and I know we aren't as close as I'd like, but I feel like reading your blog has allowed me to get to know the REAL you and the person I've gotten to know through your blog is a wonderful person who cares about everyone and everything--which is never a bad trait to have, even if it can get frustrating and stress you out sometimes.

I know work must be crazy with the new position and sometimes I feel bad b/c I KNOW I'm not working as hard as you, so please come to me if you ever need help or want me to just start doing things at the office so you can focus on other things. I'm here to help, k? :)

Anyways, I know, random to leave you this long message on a comment, but I felt compelled.

Marissa said...

Wonderful post :)

tickledpink said...

I love FNL! Clear eyes and full hearts! I have the box series. Tim Riggins is reason enough just to watch! Great post!

Lauren Kelly said...

Megan, this was beautifully written! This post is one of the many reasons I read your blog and love you, girl!!! :)

Classy Fab Sarah said...

Have I mentioned lately that you are amazing?

Amen on the work stuff... I'm strugling right there with you!!

And this... I could have written this: "
I am your typical "first born child" who is always worried about something and tries to "fix" everything, even when it's not my place to remedy the situation. I will (and have) spent hours laying awake at night worrying and trying to resolve a situation that is out of my hands. I am working on trusting God more (obviously)."

Thank you for jumping back into blogging!

petrii said...

Megan,
You my dear, are a breath of fresh air to this tired 40 somethings (yes I know ~~ old!! =) gal who needed a little pick-me-up this morning. They you for your candor and your honesty.

You are a gem ~~ Have a Blessed day,
Dawn

Patience said...

Great post. You are always so honest and that is what I love so much about your blog. Thanks for keeping it real.

Courtney said...

I can relate to feeling like a "spiritual dead weight" for my husband. It's something that I have been needing to work on for a long time now. Thanks for your post.
And I'm also sick of the chinese spam comments, glad to hear I'm not the only one getting them.

Becca said...

Girl I just love you! :-) Everytime I see you write or twitter that you're giving up blogging I feel sad - I would miss you!!! Anyways, glad you wrote this post - I love you!

Karah said...

LOVE this blog post. It was perfect. I have been missing your blog and your humor. You are funny even when you don't think you are and your blog is all about you and what you want to write about. Way to go girl, this is a perfect post!!! :)

Heather said...

You are fabulous, Megan!! I cannot wait to meet you in real life someday!!

PinkSass said...

I am also going through some kind of funk. I just kind find the right way to get back into it.

Love how you did though.

the rigdons said...

you're awesome! don't stop blogging- you've definitely still got it!

THE Stephanie said...

So glad to hear from you again!

California Wife said...

It's great to see that you're back, I love your blog and really hope you stick with it!!! : )

Ams said...

And THIS post is why we love you...
Don't disappear like that again ;)

Lauren said...

Love this. And as so many above has said...this is why we love you! You seriously make me smile with each & every post. And amen to Friday Night Lights, Chinese Spam comments, and being a first born child.

SouthernBelleJM said...

I love this post, Megan!!!!

And, I finally had to put comment moderation on. The spammers were getting out of control:(

Jayma said...

This was beautiful!

Sweet Simplicity said...

I love the "chinese spam" sentence. hahaha. It is so true! I miss your 365 picture posts or whatever they were called. Once I have read a blog for a while I don't care about cute posts, I just want to see their life. Gchat and Twitter is not enough of Megan. I need you on blogger too. :)

Tales from the Fairy Dust said...

I love your posts! I love how real and honest and down to earth you are! If it wasn't for you I wouldn't have learned how to cure post-gym hair with the curl-down. Thank you for blogging, I love to read what you have to say and your honesty is refreshing.

Newlywed Next Door said...

LOVE IT!

PS - FNL is amazing and Chinese spanners definitely need to go away!

Mrs.LifeAccounts said...

Welcome back! I have never seen FNL but sort of fell into the harry potter series and loved it! And chinese spammers have been driving me nuts!

Stolen by Mullen said...

I am a perfectionist as well... I want to be perfect in every role I have in my life. It gets difficult now that I am a mom....I am trying to realize that some things just don't matter that much. It is tough, and I will always try to be 'perfect' but I am trying to be ok with just 'ok' too!

Perfectly Imperfect said...

These are the kind of posts that you are so good at. We love this Megan! you just need to continue being you, because you're who we come to read about.

I hate chinese spammers too. With a passion.

You can't quit blogging. I simply can't let you!

Barefoot in the Park said...

hi from a new reader. glad to be here!

also: i HATE THE SPAM COMMENTS TOO. how lame.

ps: my word verification (to prevent spam comments) says "slamboog" tee-hee-hee

Emma-leigh said...

great post! Welcome back friend

Samantha said...

seriously, i cried reading this megan. you are awesome blossom.

Anonymous said...

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他變得春風滿面,嘴裡總是哼著歌曲
他開始變得有耐心聽她說話、會買禮物給她、甚至帶她出遊
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她沒有揭穿丈夫的外遇,甚至享受這樣的生活
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Love Being a Nonny said...

I love your honesty and openness. I must admit, I miss your humorous posts but all in good time!

Nicole said...

I thought of you today when my husband and I ordered a Subway sandwich. The teenager's shirt totally touched our sandwich. Bleh!!

Kelly said...

I'm Kelly and I hop over from Whitney's blog (GlamLife) once in a while to read what you have to say. I always enjoy your honesty and humor. I finally decided to become a "follower" and add you to my google reader. I always feel a tad bit weird following someone when I've never met them or even commented on their blog, so I felt I should comment. :) Happy 4th!