Three hours later I am sitting in front of the TV, with a computer sitting on my lap looking at every decorating blog possible.
And I'm feeling completely inadequate when it comes to decorating our little home.
I have no idea how to decorate. I see these amazing things that people do in their homes and then I read how they do it and all of the words start to run together and it begins to sound like a foreign language and then I lose all focus.
It is equivalent to me sitting in math class in high school.
Nothing makes sense, therefore I give up and make an F.
Thankfully I'm not being graded on the appearance of my house.
Just being judged by everybody who walks through the door.
Just kidding, only some of my friends are judgers.
I feel like this house has changed me. In fact I'm not the only person who has noticed the change. This morning while getting ready for work Luke said "babe, this house is really changing you."
I said "Oh really, how is that?"
He said "well you haven't been shopping in a whole month."
I didn't dare remind him that I have spent the last month spending absurd amounts of money on new items for the house, or that the fact that he is surprised that I haven't shopped in a measly month is embarrassing and I need to take a little shopping break.
I just looked at him, smiled and wondered to myself if that meant that I could spend more money on house things?
Hm.. the possibilities.
Anyways, I don't want to continue to talk about how I don't know how to decorate, because I feel like its the only thing I talk about these days.
I tend to become obsessed with things very easily. And I think we all know this by now. I'm the only 26 year old in America still obsessed with Titanic.
And I'm fairly convinced I'm the reason why the job "Interior Decorator" was created. I can't even hang a picture straight. Even using a level.
Level's confuse me. You have to hold the level straight to get a straight line, so what is the point of a level?
And the fact that I flunked math in high school just made complete and utter sense to everybody reading this blog.
Has anybody seen my copy of So Long Insecurity? Clearly I have decorating insecurities.
I can't just end a post talking about my insecurities. So I want to share this recipe with you. I made this little pizza balls tonight and they were delicious! Try it!
Speaking of recipes, when I explained to my husband that I am insecure about decorating he told me that I used to be bad at cooking and now I'm really good at it, so maybe one day I will be good at decorating.
I think there was a compliment in there somewhere.....