11/9/09

I Want it Now

Do you ever feel sucked up into the game of this world?

You want this.

You have to have that.

You will just die if you don’t get a such and such.

Or you NEED to show up to the party wearing a who and who.

I just made up ‘who and who’ but I kind of like it.

I have been dealing with this lately.

I think for most people it is a very normal thing to deal with, but lately it has consumed my life.

I always think I NEED something.

Whether it is an article of clothing, a certain piece of furniture or even a kitchen gadget, I fully believe that I need it and I need it now.

I also fully believe that most of the time it is a straight lie.

It is just hard to remember that in the moment.

Lately I have been a bit irritated with my husband because he is not finding us a house.

For the record I gave up on joining him in this search a looooooooooooong time ago.

I have left it completely up to him.

The other day I was whining around much like a child, complaining that we were STILL living in our stupid apartment.

When I use words like stupid you know I’m serious.

Luke then asked me why I was so adamant to get out of our apartment.

The ONLY thing I could come up was because I waaaaaaaaant a house and I want it nooooooow.

It may have sounded similar to Veruca from Willy Wonka.

Seriously, it was pretty bad.

And yes, I just admitted that I sounded like a spoiled child.

Lately, I have become consumed with the image of a home.

With granite counter tops and plush carpet, and hardwood floors, and wait……see how easy it is for me to become distracted when talking about homes?

I know that we will find a house in God’s timing, but maybe first He is trying to teach me something?

Maybe I need to learn to be content with what I have.

To become content with what I have been given and stop always searching for the next thing.

I am so blessed and have so much more than what I need, yet I still find myself discontent with what I do have.

I think the desire for ‘things’ will ALWAYS be something I struggle with. You won’t see me running around barefoot in a sheet anytime soon because I have learned to rid myself of all material things.

I will always want new clothes and I will always desire to look nice and presentable, there is nothing wrong with that.

It’s the compulsion to always have new 'stuff' and more 'stuff' that becomes the problem.

However, if I learn to break this cycle and to place my Hope and Trust in something bigger than myself it will become easier to do each time, and when feel that little voice saying “I NEED MORE” creep up I can ‘nip it in the bud’.

It seems like, lately, the Big Guy Upstairs has been trying to get me to fully grasp contentment.

Maybe I will finally get it one day.



27 comments:

Lauren @ Dreams Take Flight said...

This is SO me...I think everyone feels that way sometimes. Thanks for the reminder that it's not all about the 'stuff'!!

SuzSpeaks said...

I completely relate! It's so EASY to get wrapped up and sometimes so HARD to have a clear mind about what is a NEED and what is a WANT. Ugh... so hard!

Rachel said...

it is really easy to get sucked up into the idea that we need something better to be better people.

i am conscious that i am the same way. and when i realize that i'm acting that way, i recognize it for what it is, and move on. push it from my mind. let myself 'live in the now.'

but it will always be a struggle. i think that's our nature.

Classy Fab Sarah said...

I am totally with you on this one. I always "need" something.... but I really don't need anything.

I just wish my brain would realize it and stop making me fall in love with crap I don't need!!

petrii said...

Megan,
We live in such an instant society; everything at our fingertips. It is a great reminder that most of what we have we don't "need" ~~ we want. Two very differnt things. This lesson has been difficult for me over the years as well, and sometimes it still rears it's ugly head. Now that's encouraging huh?!! =)

I love your heart and your transparency.

Have a Super Blessed day in Him,
Dawn

Faith said...

Speaking right to my heart sister. Contentment is such a hard thing to learn. Praying that God would teach us all!

Jenny Lynn said...

i have been learning that lesson ever since we got married too. sometime i still let it creep in and consume my thoughts. having a house as nice as our best friends house, having the luxury of having a huge clothing envelope, being in the same financial position as my parents, going on a BIG vacation. I can let all of those things consume me at different times. So, I am still struggling with it but it's awesome to see how it bothers me less and less and how i have been able to start controlling it and 'nippin it in the bud'

Belle said...

I have been struggling with this a lot lately too since we've been trying to live on a written budget. I constantly have to remind myself the difference between needs and wants and that I can get by just fine without a few wants.

USCEmily said...

What a great post! I am sometimes guilty, as well, of wanting things I don't have when I really don't NEED them. It helps to take a step back and gain perspective and remember that, like you said, God has his own timing for us!

Mrs. Bear said...

I think that now that our wedding is over and I know I am not allowed to spend ANY money on things that are not necessities for everyday living... I WANT and NEED everything in sight!

Mark and Kathryn said...

You know, I totally understand what you're saying, and I have been able to figure out certain things that trigger that materialistic, gotta-have-this problem. For me, it's shopping, and looking at magazines. Usually, I am pretty content with what I have. But oh man, one step into a mall and I'm a goner... gonner.... hmmm anyway, If I get magazines, I find myself circling almost every page with something I want. But the thing is, really, I have what I need, and I don't really have the money to buy a bunch of other stuff.

So, seriously, I try to stay AWAY from the mall and shopping. I will inevitably buy something I can't afford.

I don't know if that's an encouragement at all, but maybe there is something that triggers that for you that you could avoid.

Now a house - I would be the same way, when you're ready, you've saved, you want to find the right one. I'd be antsy, too!

~Kathryn

PinkSass said...

Love this post.

THE Stephanie said...

No worries, friend. You'll get it. Hopefully I will too. LOL

Just remember, "draw near to God and He will draw near to you." It would be a lot easier for all of us to be content if we were focused on Christ and serving others before ourselves.

Unfortunately, it's a hard concept to grasp. UGH!!! Life. Why is it so hard?? LOL

Julie said...

I feel the same exact way. When I spend money it makes me happy, TOO happy in fact. Hubby and I moved to Oklahoma from Phoenix to buy a house, because the market here was SO much better, so I had this time table in my head that we would live in a teeny house for six months save money and buy our dream home.

It didn't work that way and I blamed him for it for a long time. That was unfair of me. We ended up living in that teeny house for two years before God gave us the home we were looking for. In that time God taught me SO much, and he did so much for our family. I look back now on that time as a great time of growth and bonding for our family, and some of the best memories I have will come from that home.

Enjoy this season of your life that God has you in. Some day you will be in a big beautiful home, but you will look back on this time in your apartment with your husband and realize, these were some of the best times you ever had.

Lauren said...

What a great post...this is something I need to be reminded of on a regular basis.

Patience said...

I have been dealing with this a lot lately and I know it is normal, but I don't want to constantly feel like I need this or that to be happy. Ugh! I have a lot to be thankful for today.

Lauren Kelly said...

I am feeling you on this Megan on soooo many levels. Please just know you are not alone on this one!!!! :)

Sweet Simplicity said...

I need to tell myself this daily. Great post!

Becca said...

great post friend! Seriously, why is it so hard to be content?!! what a great reminder - thanks!

Mariana said...

Watch this: http://www.storyofstuff.com/
Seriously
It totally made me stop wanting more things.

Chelsi said...

Like the other commenters... I fully agree. It is so hard to live in our society and not always want more. Contentment is something I may have to train myself to feel. Because no matter what you buy... there will always be something else. For me, I want KIDS right now. Yesterday, in fact. :) I have to know that it is not the right time for us and there are several rational reasons as to why we're waiting... But, it's so hard. SO hard! :) Just know there are tons of us out here with the same feelings!!!

lasvegasisforlovers said...

I think that this is something that most deal with. I think you are ahead of the game by recognizing the wants!

Lindsay said...

I can totally relate!!

d.a.r. said...

Yep!!!!!

In this wonderful life... said...

I totally understand the issue on the house! You just get something in your mind and you want it!

I think it's just stages in life! Honestly, since I got pregnant, I haven't had the desires to buy things....shoes, clothes, goodies... don't get me wrong, I haven't turned down good deals..but I don't have the urge to want to go shopping! I'm ready to buy stuff for the baby.. see, another stage :)

Trina said...

You're not alone! I think most females fall into this from time to time or even struggle with it daily. I'm one of them ;)

Summer said...

Our pastor just preached about contentment on Sunday. It was about how being content has to come from the inside and that no change in the amount of stuff we have or don't have will do the trick.
I struggle with feeling content sometimes too.