8/25/09

The Newspaper

I have so much going on right now, and so many throughts are swirling around in my head.

Lots of questoins.

Lots of thoughts on what makes a true friend? How do I know where God is leading me? Lots and lots of questions.

Sometimes I think too much, and ask too many questions.

And sometimes through random throughts funny stories come to my mind, and this story is one that just randomly came to my mind the other day. It is a true story.

There was a time when I was 10 or 11 (or maybe older then I would care to admit). However the story is about a special newspaper we received in the mail.

This newspaper was from a little company named Publishers Clearing House. The headline on the front page of this paper had my dad’s name written out and it said that he had won a million dollars.

I was in shock, I couldn't believe that my parents had not told me that we won this money.

I raced to my mom holding the newspaper, excited out of my mind.

First thing I wanted to do with the new money: Put in a swimming pool in our backyard. No ifs, ands, or buts about it, I wanted a swimming pool.

We were millionaires now. Why wouldn’t we put in a swimming pool?

When I showed my mom the newspaper she started laughing and said it wasn’t real, it was just junk mail.

I didn’t believe her.

Why in the world would it be TYPED AND PRINTED OUT if it wasn’t real?

This was not a joke, we won the money and they were coming to deliver it soon.

Hello! The prophetic newspaper told me so.

I remember being slightly miffed at how my mom just dismissed me. She was talking to one of her friends and said something along the lines of “Oh she saw one of those fake newspapers and thinks that we won a million dollars”.

I’m telling you now, nobody has ever taken me seriously in my life.

And now that I am telling this story, I am starting to see that there is reason for that.

Anyways, I don’t remember how I was finally convinced that it wasn’t real.

Perhaps it was the fact that nobody ever delivered the money.

And we are still not millionaires.

I was so naïve and quick to believe that we had a million dollars waiting for us. All we needed to do was wait for somebody to deliver it.

But it was so easy to believe.

I was reading it.

I was holding it.

Which makes sense as to why sometimes it is so hard for me to trust God.

I cannot see into the future, I cannot see what plans he has.

But if he wanted to send me a prophetic newspaper I would be more than willing to receive it.

But I know wanting to see into the future would be not living out in faith and believing who He is and what He is doing.

Sometimes living out in faith is the hardest thing ever and I want to throw a big temper-tantrum and say please just tell me what the heck you are up to up there Mr. God.

But I am reminded through his word to hold on and to keep seeking Him.

So there will be days where I am frustrated, and maybe even days where I am questioning, but the best thing I can fall back on is to know that His words will never fail me. These do not come to me with empty promises, but full of life.

And I keep holding on to that.

Call it my own little prophetic newspaper if you will.


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28 comments:

Lindsey said...

AMAZING post friend!!! Loved it!

Jess said...

I needed to read this today.

Thanks.

Southern Belle said...

I agree. I needed this today as well. I think we all feel this way at one point or another. You just have to have faith.

Blue-Eyed Bride said...

Seriously-- you always write what I need to read at just the right time. Thank you, Megan!

Nessa said...

Ahhh! Right there with you these past few days!!!

Lauren Kelly said...

Wow, girl. This resonated with me more than you'll ever know. I think we all need our own little prophetic newspaper!!!! Thank you for this!!

Jenna said...

"Sometimes living out in faith is the hardest thing ever and I want to throw a big temper-tantrum and say please just tell me what the heck you are up to up there Mr. God."

See above for why I love you.

And, ditto. :-)

Rachel H. said...

I love this!! Thanks for a great post!!

Heather said...

Good words, my friend!! I wish we could all get a prophetic newspaper from God!!! That sure would make trusting a lot easier, huh?

Perfectly Imperfect said...

It's like you know exactly what I need to hear so you blog it. How do you do that?! Thanks for this.. I needed this reminder.

Anonymous said...

I happened upon your blog awhile ago and I should have told you a long time ago- you are one talented writer. Your wit cracks me up. I am about 8 years older than you...got married the sma eage as you- and it sure is fun seeing myself (of 8 years ago) in your adventures. Keep up the writing- you are very talented- and I think that you are very funny and a kind person. andrea

Becca said...

I love this post. So much.

writing4612 said...

I think too much too sometimes. But that's ok...it's better than lots of other things.

You're exactly right. Walking by faith is one of the hardest things to do. I don't think I wannt to know everything that's in my future, ya know?(Example: Every trial, death, etc.) That would make me want to quit the race, and that's not an option. Just keep trusting in Him.

Sweet Simplicity said...

I love your stories! This is a great post!

Kassie said...

You are such a talented writer at expressing exactly what God is teaching us, and relating it to a personal quirky story! This is so timely for me, as well, when I don't know what I'm doing in the near or far future. How many times have I wished for a newspaper to let me know?! :)

.:: b e k k a h ::. said...

haha i was looking for a "like" button like on facebook...and then i realized there is no such thing. Great Post!

Alex and Jill said...

Great post, girl!! :)

"Faith is not believing that God can, it is knowing that He will."

In this wonderful life... said...

Love this!! You always have such a natural way to make me see how things relate!

Rachel said...

Well, I certainly won't be the first to write "Great Post!" It looks like all the previous commenters agree on my feelings :)

As always...I love your blog...keep on writing wonderful, thoughtful posts like this one!

Anonymous said...

I have read your blog for quite some time and you always make me laugh out loud. I love how honest you are about every area of your life. God has been teaching me as well to trust Him and show Him my faith. I will leave you with a quote from George Muller--a great man of faith!

"Either we trust God, and in that case we neither trust in ourselves, nor in our fellow men, nor in circumstances, nor in any thing beside; or we do trust in one or more of these, and in that case do NOT trust in God."

-Joy

Annie said...

after having a very stressful day i really needed this. wonderful post, thank you!
i hope you have a wonderful night :)

Kimmy B. said...

aww, I'm de-lurking to let you know I love your blog and I love this post.
I look forward to reading your cute and funny stories in the morning before starting my day.
I, too, wish God would deliver me a newspaper... that would make things MUCH easier at times.
Have a great night, and thanks for sharing your thoughts!

PS- thanks for allowing us without blogs to post on your site- I really appreciate that!

~kIM

elainaann said...

Great post. Thanks for sharing.

Beth said...

What a great post!

Demara said...

HE IS "full of life" indeed! What a great God we serve:) He does not joke around with us...he HATES sarcasim...and hates that newspaper, especially when it plays with HIS daughters emotions, wishes and dreams...pfff swimming pools!...God KNOWS! stupid paper;)

Newlywed Next Door said...

Great post! I love reading your blog!

Here's a comment to brighten your day! (I saw on Twitter)

That Fresh Feeling said...

I can totally relate to this post! Would love to see into the future but know that regardless if we have faith in HIM he will lead us down the right path....although that path might be intimidating to us

we are beginning the adoption process and I feel the love of God surrounding us....but it is scary.

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Taryn said...

Amen! God and I have been having some temper tantrum talks lately. More me than God though . . . I have no idea what is going on up there- but I have come to the same conclusion as you- just gotta be patient and it will work out. Thanks again for sharing this- you have a way of speaking right when I need to hear it.