4/1/09

The End

When I am reading a book, when I get to a really suspenseful part, I skip to the end of that particular mystery and read how it ends. Then, I go back to my spot in the book and continue reading the suspense, even though I now know the end.

When I am watching a movie, if it is a movie that involves a lot of ‘build up’ and anticipation, I will get online, read how the movie ends, and then continue watching my move. All the while knowing how it will end.

I like to know the end of situations.

I want to know how they will turn out, who is involved, what happens. I want ALL the details.
And usually I want this information prematurely.

When Luke and I were dating, I was not good at being patient and waiting for him to simply propose.

I would ask him constantly, when he was going to do it, what my ring would look like, how he was going to do it.

But alas, he never told me, and on February 29th I was completely shocked when he proposed.

Despite all my efforts to figure it out, I had no idea he was going to get on one knee that day.

And this is usually how life works

Situations come up.

Circumstances change, and life seems to go a different way than excepted.

And despite my efforts to figure out how things are going to turn out, despite my worries, and my anxieties, I can never find the 'secret' to figuring out the end.

But in this constant desire to skip to the end and see how it is going to turn out, in the middle of all of the worrying and fretting about the situation, I lose a part of my life.

Instead of trusting in Him and using this time to let my faith grow, I lose time. I lose valuable time that I was given, to live this life and to live it fully.

So I have been trying this.

I want to live out faith, trusting Him, and being more focused on Him, then how it will turn out.

I am working on not being so consumed with the end result, and being consumed with life now.

This moment.

Because I don’t want to miss what happens right now because I was trying to skip ahead and figure out the end.

....Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don't worry about missing out. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. Matth 6:29-31


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29 comments:

  1. oooooh, good post!

    I like "spoilers" too, and have a hard time not looking forward to or reflecting on events. Its hard to just live in the moment.

    I really like how you put the verse at the end of the post, so fitting!!

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  2. great post!
    I am a big spoiler reader too, it really is hard to not read them!


    perfect bible verse too!

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  3. Great post. Very mature and something I toatlly need to remember, but often forget!

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  4. This is a great reminder. I'm constantly telling myself to enjoy the moment, regardless of what I'm doing. It's hard sometimes, though! Thanks for posting.

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  5. I swear you just wrote about me. I mean everything. Wow. I thought I was the only one who looks ahead in books and such (it drives my husband crazy) but now I know I am not alone. Thanks for the reminder to trust and let go. I really am trying . . .

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  6. Yep, it's not good trying to "figure out" everything. Letting go is easier said than done, but you'll get there.

    I don't want to waste my life away trying to figure out what's going to happen nect because I'll most likely miss somrthing God was trying to show me THROUGH that process. People get to caught up in the process.

    My mom is always telling me "to sit back and enjoy the journey."

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  7. Love it! I'm the same way - I want to know how things end!!! What will happen next...how life will turn out.. etc. Great post.

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  8. Great post. I, too, love to know the end. It's such a relief. But unforunately, we can't see the end of everything...and that's where faith steps in.

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  9. I love your honesty and I don't think you're alone with this one. I, for one, love the suspense and element of surprise, I revel in it.

    I hope you learn to enjoy the 'here and now' of those special moments, I think you will find it very benificial and beautiful.

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  10. This is so good!!
    So good!!

    So good!!

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  11. My mom ALWAYS reads the last few pages of a book before she even STARTS!!!

    Brilliant hindsight on that!!!!

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  12. This is so true for me to Megan..
    Thanks for sharing..
    It is nice to know, I am not the only one..

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  13. Great post! :-) I love this! I used to read the end of every single Nancy Drew book before I read it!

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  14. Living by faith is so much harder, but I think the rewards are greater! I do believe that everyone struggles with this at some point..I'm always trying to improve!

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  15. What a great post!! I struggle with patience A LOT and always feel like God is providing new ways to help me develop this semi-missing trait of mine. Thanks for sharing!

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  16. This so beautifully written. You just about summed me up!! I really need to concentrate on enjoying right now more. I am glad I am not alone.

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  17. Great post! I'm sure we all struggle with this to some extent. I want to have a plan for everything. My plan is hardly ever God's plan.

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  18. i do that with movies when hubby has seen a movie that i haven't, what happens what happens =) true, we have definitely had so many situations in the past few years that have made us trust God even more, maybe for that exact reason.

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  19. I really love this post megan.. I love to know the end too.. i skip ahead in books and movies.. bec I want to make sure the ppl I love in the book or movie are ok in the end.. But not everything is like a book or movie where we can check to make sure they are ok.. we have to believe that GOD will take care of the end for us! Great great post my friend:)me and you are a lot alike:) come visit me in tulsa:)

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  20. I am a spoiler fan as well.. thanks for keeping things in perspective!

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  21. That is an awesome post! I do that exact same thing. (IMDB is my favorite- it gives the WHOLE movie synopsis!!) I want so badly to know WHEN something will happen, so I can relax and know that it WILL happen. I'm fine with waiting as long as I know it will happen eventually. I so wish I could be a go-with-the-flow person!! I'm trying, but it's so hard!

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  22. I LOVED this. So true and I felt our bond get stronger after reading the first sentences. We are the same person.

    Thanks for sharing this my friend. Something I need to be remembering at ALL times. :-)

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  23. This is such a good word! I totally skip to the end of the book, too...both literally and figuratively...or at least I try to with my life. It never quite works out and I am like you, trying to learn to trust and just go with it.
    Love ya, friend!

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  24. Awesome post, Megan! God is reminding me over and over again to trust Him...He holds the future in His hands and is sovereign over all things...why should I worry?!?!?! It's so hard though.

    I really like that version of Matthew 6:29-31. Thanks so much for sharing!!

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  25. Wow, I needed to read this.

    Generally, I like surprises. I don't want to know what I'm getting for my birthday or Christmas. However, I am struggling with wanting to know the answers and end result, lately.

    I really needed to read this.... Thank you.

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  26. This post completely hit home for me in every way. I am a worry wart, I worry about everything, about what's going to happen next, etc, etc. It does take control of my life. I need to remember to trust in Him and I will have a bright future through Him.

    I always ask Jon why I worry so much and he says there's never a reason to worry because no matter what you can't control what's going to happen next. It's so true.

    Thanks for the post girl and thanks for the verse. I am so glad that I read this today.

    P.S. I do the same with books and movies. I have to know the ending!

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  27. Good luck and blessings with this- giving it up to God and living to the fullest are definitely things that take time to learn and do.

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