I am materialistic. There I said it. It is now out.
I have more than one Coach purse and I want another one.
I have enough clothes to wear a different outfit everyday of the year, and I daydream about going shopping weekly.
I have a safe place to live and a roof over my head along with nice furniture, but yet I dream at night about purchasing a new home complete with several flat screen TV's, and room full of beautiful brand new furniture.
I am human, and selfishly I always want more.
I do not think it is bad to have any of the things listed above, but when I allow it to become an obsession in my life is when it becomes bad.
Lately God has been working on my heart, slowly showing me that there is this great big world out there beyond my little life.
You mean its not just about me? What a concept!
There are children who are starving, families who are dying one by one from Aids, children who have to begin working at a young age to help support their family.
After feeling God's leading I visited the Compassion International website and instantly become involved. There are children out there who are suffering far more than I can comprehend. Children who know more hardship than I can even imagine.
And here I am, worried about what shoes will go with my new black sweater.
Looking at these children's faces I could see their stories, their lives, their hardship. I have had the privilege of visiting some of the countries these children are from, and I have gotten just a glimpse of what kind of life these children live.
After looking at these children's pictures and reading some of their stories, suddenly my desires became so small. My heart began to ache for them.
I have been blessed in this life, yet I always want more. I have the means to support a child, but my first thought was: "Thats $32 a month, do we want to give that up?"
But my desire to serve God and to serve the nations exceeds my desire to get a new shirt next week.
Does this mean I am free of selfishness? Heck no. I'm sure it is something that I will always struggle with, Next time I'm on people.com and see the newest fashion trends I will want to run to the mall as fast as my little Honda can take me.
Yet, God is broadening my vision and opening not only my eyes but also my heart.
I am materialistic, but I'm working on it!