4/18/08

Perspective

"Show me how to love like You have loved me, break my heart for what breaks Yours"

This line is from the song 'Hosanna' - which I'm sure is sung by many different people but I am currently listening to it on the Hillsong CD "All of the Above".
This particular line has always spoke out to me - but more so this week. I long for this to be the theme of my life, that my heart would be broken for what breaks God's heart.
How many times do I turn my eyes from situations around me?
A person who just needs a friend.
A person who needs a bit of money for food.
Children who are dying of disease and hunger as I sit comfortably in my home worrying about what to eat for dinner.
Families who are struggling with sick children just trying to figure out how they will make ends meet, all the while trying to figure out what they can do to help their child survive.
I shamefully admit a lot of times I turn my eyes away from these situations. Not on purpose, but it is something that happens when I become so consumed with my life and my 'problems'.


Just this week Luke and I had to go and take care of a little business downtown (see previous post and pay particular attention to the bitterness I have toward Edmond police). While we were there I asked the girl behind the counter what she needed to see from me - she gave me her answer in a very rude, unprofessional, and tacky way - so I did what any "WWJD bracelet wearing Christian would do" I was very rude back to her and smarted off to her (not my finest moment).
Luke, from what I am sure was complete embarrassment said "Megan" under his breathe, probably to help me understand how ridiculous I looked and to please not embarrass him any further.


Well I helped the situation by very loudly stating "well if she wants to be rude to me then I will be rude right back to her". Yup, that was a beautiful moment.
After we left Luke very kindly reminded me that I have no idea what that girl is going through, and she could have had a very bad day and I had a moment to show her God's Love and instead I chose to be rude to her.
Geez. Talk about putting me in my place. Thanks for that one.
1 point for Luke on the Godly scale, negative zero for me.

I say all of this to say simply, my perspective has been off, and I apologize for that. Not to any particular person but just in general. Tonight God has humbled me and is beginning the process of changing my heart. My prayer is that God would break my heart for what breaks his, and remind me when I am allowing the little things to consume me.

P.S. I haven't worn a WWJD bracelet since junior high - just expressing a point. Do they even make those anymore? I think the yellow rubber Lance Armstrong bracelets replaced them for awhile. I wonder what is next inthe bracelet world......

1 comment:

liz said...

ok first of all it is so good to be put in our places once and a while.

but i must reference your "1 point for Luke on the Godly scale, negative zero for me."

You cannot have a negative zero! Zero is neither a positive or negative number. It is the only neutral number in the universe. You could have said negative one for me. But never negative zero.